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Current Mood: okay

Words cannot begin to explain just how happy I am right now.

Seriously.


I'm still wondering if this is all a dream...

Current Mood: indescribable

Tags: flower, friendship, love

....So I finally got a job. I now work at Stream as a Tier 2 Tech (phone support). Its a job, and I'm happy I have one. It still does not change the undeniable fact that overall I'm still quite depressed. Is it true that some people might never find love? If so, that really fucking blows.

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Armin Van Buuren - Shivers

..man... Its been really shitty lately..

Ive been moderately depressed for a few days now (more than usual). I just dont wanna deal with anything anymore... Anything i try to do just blows up in my face... so why bother? I give up.

I havnt been able to listen to techno or trance in about a month.... i can do electronic here and there... but i just cant... ionno... appreciate it... its just noise to me... even my favorite songs

I hate being alone... I'm not talking about having an intimate relationship either.... I'd kill to have a good friend right now... but just about everyone is letting me down. I miss my friends... I miss hanging out and being stupid.... I miss being involved... I just feel like an alien or something.... someone who doesnt belong.

Ive been acting weird lately too.... im unable to control my fears anymore... I had to go to the dentist this morning...i wasnt scared... i never get scared when it comes to that shit.... but i was shaking.... shaking so badly that the whole chair + lamp contraption thingy shook too.... It takes me about an hour and half to get to sleep... I dont like going to sleep.... its probably the hardest time for me to try to hold my emotions... but every attempt fails... day in... day out....  hell i was gaming the other day... started crackin up laughing and out of nowhere broke down .. i cant even enjoy myself anymore. and even though i dont have a job and i have a lot less on my plate.... im stressed like hell..

I wish there was a way i could just calm down.... and return to the old me..... I feel like i barely know my friends anymore... I wonder if im the "asshole friend" of the group, whenever he leaves everyone just shreds to pieces...


I dont know what to do about any of this....i dont even know if its my fault or not... sometimes i wind up finding a way to blame myself... maybe thats why im changing so much.... i dunno...

Some of the changes are good. I know that. for example... My motivation at school is 100% different... ussually i get my stuff done and then game during the lame parts of class... now, Im the annoying kid who just so happens to have all the tough questions that profs. wish they never had. My windows teacher, I swear, has to think im so freaking annoying for how many times i find a better way of doing shit. Another good change is that im exercising like a hella lot more than i did (haha, never) I've even changed my diet around a little bit...

Maybe... if i look better... maybe a little more fit.... id fit in better?

I still feel like a robot.
10 day spring break for me starts tomorrow (today now) .... too bad i have no one to share it with.

at least the party is ganna be good.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Coldplay - The Hardest Part

When you have no Raison d'Etre?

Current Mood: annoyed

We need to talk.

Current Location: School
Current Mood: depressed

Chet Weaver

Objective To help corporations reach there goals by leveraging my knowledge and experience in keeping information systems running.

Employment 2002 – 2006 Wendy’s Lakeland, FL

Crew Member

* Employee trainer
* Responsible for restaurant technical services

May 2005 – August 2005 Florida Multi-media Tampa, FL

Tier 1 Tech Support

* Assisted customers with Internet and phone difficulties
* Processed 35 calls per day on average.
* 5 minute average issue resolution
* Placed and filled trouble tickets.
* Authority to dispatch on-site assistance.

October 2006 – Present Automated Engineering Corporation Tampa, FL

PC/Network Technician

* Workstation installation, maintenance and patch updates
* Workstation compliance with network security policies

Education 1999 - 2005 McKeel Academy of Technology Lakeland, FL

* AP Computer Science
* Competed 3 years of Web-Development classes

2005 - 2006 DeVry University Orlando, FL

* Majored in Network Communications
* Completed Cisco Labs for 13xx, 26xx]
* Preformed IEEE standard cabling techniques

2006 – Present Polk Community College Lakeland, FL

* Major in Network Security
* Completed Comptia A+ software and hardware course

References

* Kevin Miller Wendy’s General Manager
Work: (863) 806-7600 Cell: (407) 760-5659
* David Newsom Florida Multi-Media OSR Supervisor
Work: (813) 691-3000 ext.:3004 Cell:(813) 692-8113
* Ron Hymer Drive Technologies Group COO
Work: (813) 393-6399

Awards received

* First place school level Science and Engineering Fair
* First place county level Science and Engineering Fair
* Fourth place state level Science and Engineering Fair
* Naval Science award – US Navy and Marine Corps.
* Recognition certificate from US Army
* Florida Counsel of IEEE Senior Section Award

Current Mood: determined

What. The. Fuck.

People should know that I'm still kinda touchy on the "Vanessa topic"

"you're just jealous that I'm in a better relationship than you've ever been"
"its a shame you two aren't together anymore, she was a sweet girl"

FUCKING A.

1. My relationship with her was fucking heaven on earth until it ended. There was nothing more I could have asked more from her. 2. Yes, its a damned shame we aren't. And I already know she is a sweet girl. Do you need help pouring salt and lemon juice on my wound, or do you got it?

Don't fucking make it worse for me than it has to be, I'm in enough pain as it is without you assholes.

And you guys wonder why I get depressed from time to time.

Current Mood: depressed

Actually... I give up.




Thats it, simple as that. I give up.
Done.

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Boa- Duvet